You were supposed to be my bestfriend and for me bestfriend isn't just a word. A bestfriend is someone who's there for you, no matter what. I can label anyone as a friend. But a bestfriend...? That's something that needs to be earned. A bestfriend knows me sometimes more than myself. Bestfriends share tears and laughs. You can trust them with anything and everything. I have a few friends that I can count on completely at least for now, but even them I know someday they'll go away, but that's kinda ok, it's just life as it is supposed to be.
But you, well... You were a part of me, my big brother, the person who was always giving me reasons to fight for my dreams. Even knowing why, I keep not understanding why you just stepped out of my life. And now I feel alone sometimes. You're not there anymore, you're somewhere else, somewhere too far from here, Germany. And I hate it even more than the fact that you just wouldn't talk to me even if you were near, because I don't know anything about you anymore. I know I broke your heart by saying that I didn't love you the way you loved me, it was true, I didn't, I've always said that you were like a brother for me... I asked you not to fall in love with me, remember the movie we were watching when I said so? I'm sure you do. And you promised me you wouldn't, you broke your promise, and it hurted like hell too, believe me! And you know why? Because that moment forward I knew I had lost my bestfriend, not that I'm not used to lose people I love, because you know I am, but you... Well, damn you! I never tought it would be possible to lose you, my whole world collapsed right in front of me, but as usual I raised my head and looked ahead, life wouldn't stop, and there was nothing I could do about it, unfortunatly.
I miss you, you know that. But I don't know if I want you back now, I don't know if I can forgive, much less Forget, I hurt you, but it wasn't my fault, you hurt me as well, but it was your choice!